I feel as if I have nothing. I’m sad and have no desire to interact with people anymore. I was stupid, stupid for not being with my best friend when I had the chance. Stupid for hiding my feelings for so long because I seen how he flirted with girls and questioned his commitment to me. I love him. Love…. this infectious diseases that causes me so much pain and sorrow that I question my personal worth. It’s sad. I sound pathetic. I’m allowing the worst for myself, giving up everything and gaining nothing. Why must I want things I can no longer have. Why do I want him when its clear he no longer cares for me as how he once did.